It's been a while since i've used this thing, but i guess i just got a couple things that i wanted to get off my chest. I've been trying to do some soul searching lately, and trying to figure out what the fuk exactly is eating away at me. I need some stability in my life and I just can't seem to get a good grasp on it. Things seem to be so out of my reach and I can't really figure it out. It makes me sad too that it seems like there's no one i really feel like talking to or maybe more like I feel like no one really wants listen to what i have to say. I know there are people out there that care, but i don't want to bother them with my problems....so i guess that's why i'm on here to vent a lil today.
I miss how things used to be... I look back on my life and I see a completely different person than who I am now...it's not that i'm not happy with who i am, but sometimes i just wonder if life would be easier if I had not changed
I remember back in the day i used to be so stubborn and so hard headed, and now i'm older and it's like I can't just can't put up that fight anymore. I feel so frustrated and angry sometimes because I feel like certain people take advantage of that fact.
When the fuck did i get so goddamn emotional? I was so good at hiding my emotions before. I guess I was afraid of being hurt so I never gave any one person the entire view of who I was. Why did I change that? I was once told that i needed to open up more if i wanted to get closer to people and if i wanted them to get closer to me. Well, if this feeling is what results from opening up, then I'm not sure i like it.
I hate feeling like i'm getting taken for granted. It's sucks. Period.
YOU MAKE ME SO ADOIFUD KFJGHWEO IUFHER OWIUVEUEWOFIWEHJF OGI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've got more, but it's all jumbled up inside my head like that last line. In rereading this...none of this actually makes any sense....but whatever...just needed to get some shit out.
once again i find myself listening to that m-flo loves yoshika song "let go"
